Monday, January 4, 2010
who knows the definition of Love? im sure we all have our own interpretation to that word. but there is a similar meaning. care, respect, trust, not hurting one another etc.
but sad to say, some sees it as betrayal, dishonesty, uncaring, unfaithful, disrespectful. at least for someone i know.
u know what. it hurts me to see a dear friend in such pain. of course, i knew how its like. been there. done whatever he's doing now. crying, thinking, hoping, missing, isolating from everyone who cares. all for nothing because he or she will never come back. they never will. and they dont care. we're the nice ones who always gets hurt in the end.
its not easy. god no. its not. i would be lying if i said i do not reminisce the times i had with my ex bf. asking what if qns and so on. but for what? he had moved on way earlier than i hope for and there is absolutely no chance for us to happen once more. it hurts? hell yes it did. i didnt waste a few years loving a guy for nothing. of coz it hurts. but when one party has moved on, u know its game over.
likewise. its been game over since the day she left u my friend. why do u fail to see that? she has been happily fooling around with guys out there and you are sitting at home hoping that she runs back to your arms when she has so many to choose from out there?? she still loves u doesnt she? yes she does. she loves to make use of u! thats her definition of love! to hurt the man she loves. physically. emotionally. she'll only come running when she feels like it. you're just her toy. her bitch. and i hate it when it happens.
im fucking tearing up as im typing this coz of what shes doing to you. you deserve so much better. open your eyes and see the truth that has been out there for so long. love has blinded u but i really hope you move on. give yourself another chance. u encouraged me so much when i was alone and down but yet, ure doing it to yourself.
if she really love you, she wouldnt have done this to u. even if in her eyes, she sees me as the reason why your relationship failed. u know what? im fine with that. coz when she physically abused you for the first time that i got to know of, i dislike her. there was no respect in the relationship! and then when it happened again n again, i knew the relationship was going down. she has not for ONCE respected your feelings. your pride. i knew she was bad news from day one. blame me or not, the reason why it failed was her. my conscience is clear. i meant what i said to you but i was just the rebound girl. nothing more. im not the kind who comes btwn others in a relationship nor the kind to date best friends. so really, was it my fault that it failed?? get real.
im not saying that its not all her fault. maybe u did some mistakes too. but in my eyes, infidelity really kills a relationship. i mean seriously, why do people cheat on their spouse? because there is NO love anymore. so really, does she still love you? no. she loves the idea of u. she's used to a routine that was a part of her for more then 7 years. yet sadly, its wrongly interpreted as love.
i just hope you'll get tru this. move on. i know u'll not talk to me. not like we used to. things have changed between us. fine. i get it. but i wouldnt be sitting here tearing if i didnt care. you're still my best friend. and i think the rest of the guys are concern too.
im sorry for some harsh words. just hope you'll wake up from this nightmare that has been bothering you for months. take care.
the end.