Thursday, April 30, 2009
my relatives from Penang just left my house to sleep over at another house just for tonight. and OMG!!! the son.. feewwwiittt!! handsome lah!! like seriously handsome!! even as a boy he was good looking.. we used to be so close. haha.. but of coz, we grew up apart. hahaha... oh boy... im so drooling!! hahaha.. i'll try and snap a pic and upload if i can kay.. haha.. betul nyer cuci mata diyana. hahah..
tom, im playing host with my cousin who is driving us. but have no plans where to go yet. haha.. so, tom, dress nice nice lah. haha..
baru ingat nak tido lambat to watch tv.. but seems like i need to have my beauty sleep now. hahah. =)
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can we please go karaoke soon?? haha.
"I feel like dancing.. dancing.."
so bored.. waiting for my relatives from Penang to come. they be spending the night for a few days.. so this means that ive to play host! haha. baru ingat nak rest during this long weekend.. apa lah nasib... hehe.. but takpelah.. i still remember, the anak so damn handsem la.. cuci mata.. confirm! mata aku nie baik.. haha. yah.. still got red eye from contact lens..
oklah.. nothing much to blog actually.. im just bored at the moment.. hehe..
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Tuesday, April 28, 2009
all my friends have received their NIE package but ME!!! ape nie!! mane surat aku??? 3 of us masuk same time. another 2 almost 5 months later. but semua dah dapat surat!! WHERE'S MINE???!!
and now, i got to mix another song for cheerleading. thanks to the big ideas my colleague has. haiz.. and when's the competition? end of May. plus the students will be having exams till a week or 2 before the competition. enough time to plan a new routine? i doubt so. why cant we just keep to the old one and better it instead of re-vamping the whole damn thing??
god. seriously. argh!
I WANT MY PACKAGE!!
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Sunday, April 26, 2009
I still wanna watch 17 again!! haha.
Dreading for monday. Got to mark exam papers. P6 level. Wad?? so my monday to wednesday burn. Hari hari kene stay back to mark papers. Haiz.
My eyes merah balik. Its the contact lens. Maybe should stop wearing lenses for now. Ive been wearing my granny glasses for a week!! I need to get new glasses! Haha.
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Friday, April 24, 2009
haiz.. how i wish i had someone.
okay.. so contridicting to what i told Azman yesterday...
oh yes. i mentioned Azman didnt i? haha. yah.. dah dua tahun tak nampak online kat msn, smlm i went online and he beeped me while mum was using my comp. haha. baru mentioned him on my blog on wed. and thurs, i heard from him. haha. we caught up. he asked about work and life and bf. as usual kan. haha. he switched job already. no longer at PSA. but his work now even teruk. 24hours shift then next day off. quite tiring i feel. and even no life. but it works well for him coz still single, no commitments. haha. so thats when we agreed at times it great to be single. haha. but god.. he's 30 this year! or 31! will he ever get married?? haha. but didnt ask him that question lah. haha.
my kids were IDIOTS today. shall not waste time blogging about them. fucking monkeys. they are the reason why i lost my voice.
and guess who i bumped into on my way home... heheh.. not a handsome dude.. but its our very own cute-and-adorable 'Teddy' bear!! hahaha. amacam ted? kembang tak? haha.. member baru balik skolah... semoga berjaya ted!! finally you got your wish to be back in sch. work hard!! =)
we caught up also. lame seh tak dengar ape ape from him.. haha.. we are in the same boat ted. chill.. relax.. we shall live our lives the way we want to! haha.. mcm paham.
oklah.. i think i wanna go watch a movie online. haha. theres nothing on TV!! im watching S-league as im typing this. haha. like wad...
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Wednesday, April 22, 2009
qn: It bothers you how your boyfriend;
my ans: Never really makes an effort to win your parents blessing
SPOT ON FACEBOOK!!
the reason why im addicted to doing all these silly quizes on facebook to kill time. heh.
ive alot of files to delete. on my lappie, pictures of fadzli. hp, msges of fadzli. strange how i no longer have anything to do with azman and fahrul now. fahrul called a while back asking me to go over but i kept coming up with excuses. so maybe he got the hint. now, my mission is to forget fadzli. a nice romantic person, but never really makes an effort to win my parents blessing. hahaha! mission impossible? possible.
Mission: Forget Fadzli begins... NOW!
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fuck lah! everything about money is fucking irritating me right now. FUCK LAH!!!
wah serious ah. org balik penat2, nak membebel pasal duit. fuck. have i not contribute to this fucking family? didnt i pay for 2 ppl for the stupid fucking trip to australia? the one you DRAG me to go when i didnt want to? didnt i loan you the money coz ur card was spoilt? didnt i pay for kakak's bill first? semua tu tak pakai duit eh? all that adds up to $2000! thats all my savings gone! tinggal 10 dlm bank. tu pun nak membebel. yerlah, org tau la kakak tu pandai jimat. satu setengah tahun keje dah leh simpan 10k. aku nie, bebulan keje pun ada 2 ribu je. yelah aku nie kan blanja besar. but so what??! tu duit sape? ada menyusahkan tak? ada aku pinjam kau tak? aku kasi lebih lagi ada. tu pun nak membebel. its not that i didnt save what. just that i save lil by lil. save juga kan? seriously lah. binggit! and plus, some of my money is with my dad wad. a few hundreds. simpan untuk kahwin, untuk masa depan. yang sekarang ni, sape yang halang aku nak matair ngan sape. mcm gini nak kahwin? kirim salam sudah. aku pun dah pasrah. dah tak kuasa nak cari jantan lain. semua pun kau tolak. mentang2 abang ipar aku tu ada doctorate, kuat ugama. lain semua dah tak pandang.
FUCK!!! now i feel like crying. so fucking stressed! mane ngan skolah. ngan hal rumah. dah baik tu aku tolong tau. ada anak orang lain kat luar pun, keje gaji besar, duit bulan pun tak kasi. enjoy diri sendiri. fikir tu sudah lah. nie tak. nak salahkan aku. nak salahkan ayah. ayah tu dah tua. drive satu hari mestilah penat. ingat dia robot ke ape.
remember guys, lelaki, tanggungjawab besar. dah kahwin, ada keluarga sendiri lagi susah. with your parents and also your family. so seriously, think about your future from now. pilih kerjaya yang stabil. jangan jadi macam aku sudah. asal bebual pasal duit. gaduh pasal duit. everything links to money.
buruk betul bila diyana mengamok.
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Tuesday, April 21, 2009
pada pandangan yang pertama....
chey bah.. diyana nie.. berjiwang.. haha.. lagu 80's lagi.. hahah..
just done marking. wah.. can vomit blood! so careless! haiz..
as usual, ive to scold my kids everyday. so naughty. and tom ive to take them for the whole day. wah... can die!
anyway, ordered pastamania just now. haha. my colleague lah.. tanya nak order tak. so i said oklah.. coz i got 50 bucks. nak beli makan kat skolah mane nak dpt change.. so oklah.. 5 of us ordered pastamania. hehe. makan besar. hehe.
got a lift home from my colleague. went to eastpoint to pay utility bill for my sis. so now im really broke!! 18 left in my POSB acct. and 36 left in my UOB acct. most of my bills cant be paid this month. haiz.. i really wonder mane my duit gone to. haiz.. hopefully dad can pay be back the money he borrowed soon..
ive still 4 weeks to survive on 20 bucks!! haha. impossible? minum air jer lah.. haha..
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Monday, April 20, 2009
yes. a thing.
went to the doctor to get my eye checked. and he prescribed me an eye drop and eye ointment. so went to apply both meds lah. the eye drop was no prob. it was the ointment that got on my nerves!! its a gel like substance from a tube and im suppose to instill it into my eye sac. sounds easy right? but the ointment just kept oozing out of the tube even when i did not press it!! i couldnt get it to stop! and the gel was impossible to stay in my eye saw that i had to keep wiping it away and re-apply it without pressing the tube since it was oozing out anyway. and it was alot! so i had to keep wiping it off the tube till i gave up coz it wont stop and guess what i did? i pressed the tube and while doing so cursing it. "nak keluar sangat kan.. bodoh." and guess what happened to the tube? out of shape and a lil bit more than half of the ointment was gone into the bin and on the floor. coz i was sqeezing it hard and venting my anger on the tube.
now that ive said it, i felt like laughing at myself. but seriously. argh!
think not gonna apply the ointment anymore. shall just use the eye drop every 6 hours. seriously so irritating.
i think theres nothing to do now but sleep. sigh. the thought of not wearing my contacts makes me feel so unpretty. i know. vain. but hey.. im a woman who is still searching for the One. so, must make the effort to look pretty 24/7. heh. and my specs makes me look like a granny!
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Sunday, April 19, 2009
yesterday, went to JB. inspite of my eye infection. haha. kesian Nizam. msged and asked if got plans anot. he forgot that i was going Jb. haha. so anyway, didnt do much shopping coz was too busy finding my mum. infact, i didnt buy anything for myself! sigh.. i saw Levis jeans at 70 to 100 ringgit and i was so tempted to buy! but of coz mum said i got a lot of jeans. which i dont! ive only my blue levis and black dorothy perkins nyer. sigh. wad a bargain. so what did i buy anyway? hmm.. Kenny Rogers, wax strip, wet tissue, Optrex and Eye-Mo. sigh..
and im now officially broke!
tinggal 30 bucks in both my bank account. coz mum borrowed my money coz her card rosak smlm. so yah.. and this coming payday pun cannot spend. stupid aussie trip. sigh..
but im so looking forward to be home alone this end of may!! haha. hopefully mum wont pester grandparents to stay home with me. hehe. coz yours truly obviously will have her plans of her own. hahah.. so people, please!! spare some time for me coz its the only time i can be out late and home late! heck! i dont have to be home if i dont want to!! hahaha.
so 30th May me and my girls will be having the Kindness Cheerfest competition at Ngee Ann City which will end at 8pm. on a saturdday. then if we get tru finals, we have to be back on the 31st to perform. but its ridiculous coz we have to report there at 2pm. so imagine, 6 hours with the kids!!! can die!! thus i need to relax after that whole thing. hahah.
omg!! the thought of being alone and being able to party is making me so excited! haha..
alright then, shall finish up my markings and rest my eyes..
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Wednesday, April 15, 2009
im on MC! haha. all thanks to the yogurt i ate the night before. but i woke up at 5am and went to the toilet twice. haha. msg my RO and told her im not coming and slept till 9.30am. woke up and went to polyclinic to get my MC. heheh. after dat, went home and slacked the whole day! so fun! just lay and watched tv!! haha. i wonder why people complain when they work shifts. hahaha. can sleep in, movie marathons.. hehe.. okaylah.. maybe coz im independent in the sense that i always do things on my own i.e shopping or wondering ard. but yah, kalau ade teman lagi best lah.. haha.
tom is a sch day.. back to sch. but i think tom my timetable quite relax. haha. so not bad lah. cume after school ade oral exams so got to stay back for duties. missed today's tho. haha. today whole day so lucky i skip. haha. jahat.
my passport is ready for collection! haha. muke so kental. haha. but wadaver lah.. haha.. so can go JB this sat! haha. but... nak spend ke tak eh? haiz.. i got 300plus je dlm bank to last me till next pay day. haha. maybe not lah.. JB nak beli ape. haha. sorry lah.. akak ni kan high class.. nak bende branded aje.. RAOUL, BRAUN BUFFEL.. hahah.. mcm paham je aku nie.
counting down to Sydney: 52 days
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Tuesday, April 14, 2009
my kid came up to me and said, "Miss Diyana, my sister told me something. About you and your boyfriend." i was like, shit. i knew who she was refering to lah. coz i bumped into the group of girl at Vivo. so i said i dun have a bf lah. all day long she went "Miss Diyana and boyfriend" and i just gave her that look. told her, he's my friend. and hes a boy. so yalah, boyfriend. but she wont stop. haha. kids. so naive.
so trip to SAM was okaylah. had a few laughs. funny people. and we were worse then kids! we were talking and making alot of noise! shame on us. hahah. then took pictures. but i wont have a copy of it lah coz its the sch camera. bummer. haha. after which, i went home on my own taking 12. didnt want to go back to sch. haha. direct bus easier.
am so tired now i can just fall asleep this minute. but no. im addicted to facebook. correction. facebook quizes. haha. more like bored and doing it to waste time. haha.
and what do you know, most girls from lys are actually engaged! haha. at 21. and where am i? haha. takpe.. career dulu. cinta nie semua tak penting. haha.. mcm paham je aku nie.
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Monday, April 13, 2009
dad called and said he will go with me to sydney. BUMMER!! i wanna go alone! so i pester him to go ahead lah. which he agreed. but hope it stays at that! he still had second guess tadi. man... i wanna go alone! experience travelling on my own. since i never will get the chance to do so anyway. hahah. except for my 2 sibling whom got a change to go australia or cambodia or wherever. me? my camps was all in singapore can! pulau ubin does not count! its within singapore region anyway. haha. so please pray dear friends that i can fly alone! haha.
so far, what i know is, we be flying on SQ. midnight flight. should be fun. please please please let me have this experience on my own. haha.
tom, teachers will be going on a learning journey. took all of us by surprise! when we came this morning, a notice was pasted on the door informing us of this trip. i was like WHAT?? to the arts museum. i dun mind going lah. but we werent inform. lucky im single. haha.
was listening to the radio just now. evanescense my immortal was playing. and guess who i thought of when this line, When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears, was playing? azman. haha. i was smiling myself silly when i thought about it. we were sitting in his car at the backseat. and this song was playing on the radio. and he told me, he did that before. wipe away my tears. then i thought about it and asked, when did i cry infront of you? and he said not the sobbing kinda lah.. in times when i was devastated when hamad left me. haha. till now i still remember his words. and whenever i hear this song, i get reminded of him. haha. strange how little things like this stays with you. and this coming aussie trip, i will be reminded of fadzli pula. as it is, im thinking of him already. haha. about him trying to stop me from going to aussie. haha. oh well.. and like just now, when i went to parkway, i teringat him juga coz we had went there before. and even to places around singapore. i find that i cant visit these places as it will bring back memories. thus, im desperate to flee this country and leave everything behind and start anew. haha. if only that was possible. i would.
haidir tanye why im so free to update my blog almost everyday. hahaha. coz i dun have a bf to keep me busy thats why!! haha. if not, i'll be complaining to my bf and not my blog. but its a good thing i dun have a bf also. when i blog, i can just say everything out but with a bf, i cant. kene jaga hati. haha.
Cause when I'm with him
I am thinking of you
Thinking of you
yah. i do that. aLOT! haha.
okay.. got my marking and checklist to complete! =)
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Saturday, April 11, 2009
boo.. takde extra car to go JB so i cant go. bummer...
went out to changi point for breakfast. initial plan was to book tix at golden landmark but dad made a phone call instead. but flights are confirmed already lah. have to. selling fast.
Ayah,Ibu and adik leaving on 23/5.
Me leaving on 5/6
woohoo!! alone! haha.. best. haha.. alone!! can kenyit2 mata at mat saleh hansem2. hahah. so Diyana, got to be pretty when she leaves for Sydney kay? hahaha. as if.
im bored... did i mention im super bored!!?
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Thursday, April 9, 2009
i was still preparing at the last min. thank god its done. but i think it wasnt good lah. i dunno. coz i had to skip questions and slides coz its taking too long. but my colleague said good coz it shows time management. haiz. hope so.
was so tired by then so went home after sch. tu pun, duduk kat lounge and bebual with some malay teachers. haha. banyak stories. left about 2. then makcik security was there. and she asked, "Dah lama tak nampak abang? Mana abang?" i was like.. haha.. "Abang? takdelah.. Abang dah hilang." and she said dun say like that tak baik.. org bunian amik eh? hehe. just laughed it off and walked away.
cabbed home coz i was super tired coz of lack of sleep and my bag was really heavy. 2 bangs on my shoulders. balik, pray then sleep. hehe. slept till about 6.30. tu pun tanak bangun but got to force myself up to bathe and pray.
haiz.. sourcing for airline tix now. so hard to find a good deal.
tom, no plans. so shall stay home and prepare another lesson for observation on Monday. god help me. hope everything will go on fine.
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Tuesday, April 7, 2009
kurang asam betul.. hahah.
i hate being sick. especially flu! irritating! cant breathe! my nose is so blocked ive to breathe tru my mouth. but at least not too bad this ime round. no fever. YET. heh. but seriously irritating lor. kene kipas pun boleh blocked. so imagine me stuck in my meeting tadi in air con room.
netball match was postpone to tom due to the rain. we just ended our first quarter when they finally blew the whistle to go in. we played in the rain. and we were drenched! haha. add on to my already weak immune system. hoping to be on MC. haha. but too bad tom i cant go watch the match coz ive stupid supplementary lesson. my RO didnt know that tom lesson was all cancelled but coz im around, she told me to go on with it. wad...
haiz. observation this thursday. please pray hard for me. its either i go into NIE ke tak. the final report and decision lies with them. haiz.. please GOD, just this once, help me.
okay. need sleep. argh! irritating nose!!
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Monday, April 6, 2009
so today morning i was told by colleague that VP nak observe me teach this week. THIS WEEK!! she was told last week but couldnt get me lah reason. so i was like THIS WEEK? shit! now im stressed out to plan something for her to see! haiz.
then my p4 teacher told me that she wants to observe me for eng. when? next monday. another week. coz the rest of the week, im hardly in her class. haiz.. hopefully i can do this man..
another observation done by my RO will be this 7th May. its during the exam week. the peer observation thingy. wah.. stressed man.. got 3 observation. can mati just to prepare one. pening kepala you know..
stayed in class after the final bell rang for the day. finished up my markings. it rained heavily while doing so. then left and train ride to pasir ris. went to popular to buy assesment books to prepare my supplementary lesson for wednesday. then went to downtown east McCafe and sat there for about 3 hours before Wan came. hehe.
we watched Confessions of a Shopaholic at downtown 7.35show. i'd say the movie was good. funny.. enjoyed it. especially that gay receptionist. haha. he was so cute when he was at that Girl in the Green Scarf sale. haha. cute as in funny cute. haha.. i know.. im such a total chick flick kinda person. hehe.
kay then. tom long day. still got a match after sch. final match. haha. then gotta prepare for supplementary and also observation. sigh. work work work. im becoming a dull person.
and i think im falling sick again. the flu bug. my nose is blocked as im typing this. heh.
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Sunday, April 5, 2009
and check out the red one. its almost bloody to look at. haha. if i were to buy this, it be either gold or red. gold looks classy and sophisicated like me. the red, devilish! haha.
i saw it on tv and i was like OMG!! straight away check website and fell in love. haha. now thinking nak trade my DSLR to this camera anot. haha. silly woman.
i need to go make my passport! its expiring this sept, on my birthday. so need to go make asap. thing is, ive no time during the weekdays to go! haha. i think i can do so online but then, i need to go take a passport pic. and my face now is so ugly. im like 2 tones darker thanks to the hot weather and my pimples are popping out like crazy! whats wrong with my hormones man?! and making this passport will incur money as well. sigh. can i just not go to bloody australia?
been doing all sorts of quizes on facebook. see how bored i am. and i found out that my starbucks drink is mocha frap. which is actually true and i always order that drink anyway. haha. and im a -0.05% minah. they called it a macam paham college minah.haha. but thank god im not a minah. and i be dead at age 70plus. and so on. god my life is crap. hahaha. i need more exciting things in life then doing lame quizes to past time!
oh, told my mum ive 4 guys who ran away coz they are afraid of her stupid rules and guess what she said.
im cheap. baru 22 dahde 4 lelaki.
like WHAT??! me? cheap? if it wasnt for you, i wouldnt be having 4 boyfriends. i believe in falling in love ONCE, be his girlfriend and marrying the guy. and i did. a long time ago. yah, im such an old fashioned lover. so seriously, dun blame me or pester me like what you did to kakak when i dun have a bf or am near to getting married age. becoz i lost faith in love.
okay. no more boy talk remember diyana? heh.
i feel like singing. haha. so random.
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was suppose to go out with family but stupid sister buat perangai, mum got angry. so im stuck at home with boredom and the only think i find myself doing is preparing ppt slides and eating. oh how i hate the weekends. i can eat and eat and eat! no wonder im getting fat.
so anyway, mum nagged at me about my financials again yesterday. its not that ive no money at all. i do. but this australia trip is killing me. plus, im paying for my dad's airline tix so that would cost me a total of 1600 for 2 ppl. thats just the airline. not inclusive of visa. so of coz im having trouble to save up that money within a short period of time. coz initially, ive no plans of going at all. it was just last month that they managed to persuade me into going. so ive abt 1200 in my bank acct. and my dad still owes me 700plus. which i doubt i can get it anytime soon coz he's really struggling. so thats like close to 2000. which is enough for the airline tix. so april, may and june salary will be for my expenses there. and it wont be much since after minus my fixed expenses, ive only like 600 to save. so 600 x 3 = 1800. and im going for 2 weeks. cukup tak eh? sydney is expensive. but insyaallah. so really, must budget to the max! seriously roti ngan air je for the next few months.
but what got me irritated was that she thinks i dunno how to save. and she wants to pegang my duit. like hello!! its my money. so why u want to kepo2? i know she has good intentions but i feel like she's looking down on me. like seriously. whenever i buy anything for home, do i minta balik the duit? my dad pinjam my duit, did i pester him to return me? no. im not petty abt money. ive no intention of setting up a family so why bother saving up for marriage? we'll talk when a good guy comes along and is sincere to be with me. but till then, i think im allowed to have some fun while i still can. its been like this with my mum. duit duit duit. tak habis2. so what if my sister gives her 300 and can still save alot when she first started working. saved up 10k in 2 years and used it to get married. so what? i still have a long way to go. and at the rate that guys been leaving me, i dont think i;ll get married soon anyway. lagipun, duit tu boleh bawa masuk kubur ke?
takpe diyana.. chill..
so anyway, now, i think im gonna go take a short nap. then continue with work. next week will be kinda hectic as well. what else is new kan? but looking forward to the movies with Wan on monday. shopaholic! and too bad plans for friday is cancelled coz haidir tak free. oi! busy sangat kau ni? sibuk nak kahwin ke pe? hehe. so anyway, we'll meet soon people! im dying to have fun! been 2 to 3 weeks dat ive been spending my weekends at HOME!! im going crazy!
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Thursday, April 2, 2009
whole day in sch. then after that had to go to TP for a match. was such a hot day! match was at 2pm. and alot of ppl. think theres was a camp in sch. so anyway, we lost, again. heh. then walked back from TP. stopped by eastpoint before reached home. walked for a total of one hour. haha. felt so good. but of coz, diyana balik kebuluran. satu hari kat skolah, minum 2 cawan Milo aje. gastric. so makan nasi briyani. haha. so im back to square one. haha.
okay, be prepared to laugh at me okay..
so it was after assembly. i had no lesson till about 8.30am. so i went to the resource room to do work. but something happened. one teacher was bleeding. there was blood on the floor and her pants. and another teacher was helping her. the rest of the teachers in the room was oblivious! so i went like "What happened?" and she started crying and stuff lah. then she called her hubby. suruh datang to fetch her to the hospital. but the other teacher and i suggested to call the ambulance instead coz its faster that way. so i went to make the call. i was panicking. my colleague was crying and there was blood. i punched in the numbers on my hp without looking when i pressed the 'Call' button and was connected to the other end of the line.
me: Hello, i need an ambulance please.
him: What seems to be the problem ma'am?
me: my colleague is bleeding from her stomach. i think she's having a miscarriage.
him: Sorry ma'am, then you should be calling 995. not 999.
i looked at my hp and saw.. 999
me: (so paiseh by now) oh sorry sorry sorry. okay thanks.
and i hung up and punched in 995 instead.
haha. felt so bodoh. haha. told my colleagues later in the day and we laughed at my lame actions. haha. kental diyana. ape tak.. mengelabah aku dibuatnyer.. panic babe. wasnt even thinking straight.and i never had to call the police or ambulance before okay. that was the first. and hopefully, the last. haha.
but thank god shes okay. kept telling her to mengucap and assure her that everything will be alright. got news later in the day that the baby is fine. alhamdulilah..
okay, shall relax today. so damn penat. tom will be another long day. lepas skolah, meet parents then lepas tu bring the P5s to road safety park. will only be done about 5plus. haiz.. need to rest man..
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Wednesday, April 1, 2009
okay. nothing much changed. just layout and url. lain, tagboard semua same. hehe.
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