Wednesday, September 30, 2009
lots to blog about! hehehe..
September has been a great month for me. well, except for the bloody deadlines. hehe..
first of, terima kasih kawansejati ku semua yang planned a birthday surprise for me. hehehe. me love. me love. and the pressie! a bag! haha.. great for school! thanks alot!! love u guys.. hehe..
enjoyed so much. can see from pics uploaded in FB. hurhur..
then.. hari raya. haha.. i seriously tak rasa the atmosphere. puasa pun tak rasa the impact. tau tau dah raya. hahah.. but of coz lah, diyana mcm mak datin kan. hahah.. baju glam giler.. me likey.. lawa.. mestilah.. diyana yang pilih kain kat arab street. heheh. hoping to jalan raya with the guys this year. last year tak jalan.. tapikan.. mcm tak jadi jer.. busy lah wad lah.. haiz... upset upset..
okay.. confession sikit.
got in touch with the ex. wwoops! cerita panass!! haha.
yeap.. we did.. mlm raya. over msn.. and declaration. haha. he said that tak sia2 he dated me. and i jokingly asked, regret tak? and he said...yes to be honest. and he kept thinking abt me everyday. tried to get back with me but takut i reject.. haha.. that was unexpected. but yah... and he said something else.. which akak malu nak share.. hehe.. nanti korg ingat aku nie syiok sendiri pula. haha. tapi takpe. and yah.. he kinda asked me if i dont mind dating him. too late ma brother. which is sad.. but i guess, ada hikmahnye.. maybe he's never mine to begin with. tho i prayed and wished he was. haha. he's great ah.. cume, he got his insecurities got over him. he kept thinking that he's not good enough for me. well, im contented with what he has and who he is. can be improved but i was happy. but yah.. mungkin bukan jodoh?
and.... i met him semalam. azman. yeap. i did. i was in the cab otw home from tamp, he called. i was like shocked lah. then he said he's going to his aunty's house pat simei blk 134. so he asked nak jumpa tak? i said okalah. so i met him. he came ard 10ish to fetch me and drove over to the next blk to my aunty's place and we just sat there and caught up. he send me back home abt 11.15 coz he's going back to the office. but yah.. nice to finally meet an old friend.
i know i know.. dun play with fire. im not. we're just friends. tho we have feelings for each other, but we've moved on. and we know where we are. so i knew theres nothing going on btwn us. but i still didnt mention this to fadzli coz i know i'll break his heart. i just told him im meeting an old friend. he asked who but i didnt give him much detail. he guessed its an old bf but i lied. entah eh.. dunno why im doing this. i just dun want him to think too much. im just friends with my ex. i know i know, u can never be friends with the ex. but i guess, if u know ur limits, it should be fine. and yes... i wont hurt fadzli.. he's been a great bf. and whats more, im his very first gf! i know right... stress aku. nak kene jage betul2 nie.. cant let him have a bad experience with his first relationship. hahah.
but what was funny was that, fahrul also smsed me smlm. and dia yang upset i went to meet azman later that night. hahah.. entah nape, both my ex contacted me smlm. heheh. and i thought i saw him riding out from my carpark when azman was driving into my carpark to send me home. takkan dia spot check kan? heheh. told azman. he said, kawan takpe.. jgn ur bf. haha.. dia pun takut. =)
watched Ugly Truth tadi. hahaha.. not bad lah.. it was funny. hehehe.. and gerad butler.. my gerad butler... gggrrr... yummy yummy.. me like.. hehehe...
okay ppl!! going to sleep! going back to HGS tom! gonna see my kids for childrens' day!! hahaha.
the end.