Saturday, May 9, 2009
tiba-tiba diyana rasa sedih. it suddenly hit me that all my life, ive been living a lie. i lied to myself that everything will be alright but it wasnt. i lied to be free. i lied about my feelings. im a big fat liar! suddenly i hate myself. i hate my life. i hate all these lies that i forced myself to believe in. my god, i seriously need help. but no one can help except for HIM. i need HIM to show me the way.
hmm.. i so LOVE that dress wan and i saw at FOX. too bad its abit pricey. but of coz i was once pampered by a man i loved. pantang kalau diyana tunjunk. mesti belikan. haha. but i like that feeling of being pampered. haha. tapi lame lagi lah diyana nak rasakan perasaan tu lagi. haha. maybe in my thirties? haha.
i've lots of things to buy but so lil budget!! stupid aussie trip. really. its just a bad time. haha. mane diyana nak save lagi. hmm.. strictly no spending for now till aussie trip. hope i can find some good bargains there. coz i wont be here for the GSS! haha.
oklah.. dah kul 2 pagi. ingat nak ngok movie online. 17 again. yerlah.. nizam and haidir dah tgk with out me.. thanks eh... humph! shall go try get some sleep. though i doubt i will. feeling so shitty now. heh.
the end.